Isaiah 53:5 “And by His wounds we are healed.”
There was a crack in the retina, the eye specialist said and he had to laser it twice. In 7 weeks I should come back for control. ”Don’t call, when the flashes of lightening are not increasing”! After the day of treatment I was permitted to do anything but heavy sports. And I prayed to the Lord: ”You say in Your word that You are the Lord, Who heals us and I pray for Your blessing and healing of the eye. And I thank You, that You are healing me too.” I took more rest and started more to pray. Also I thanked the Lord for His healing power. Although I didn’t see any change. Then I reminded James 5:14,15. So I went to the elders of the church for prayer and anointing of oil. There was improving during 3 days: no flashes anymore. Afterwards it started again! I asked the Lord what he was teaching me through this all. And He made clear that answering prayer hasn’t to be instantly, but also a process to healing. It’s not switching on the light and see there it is!
I just had to trust Him, like a child trust its father. Look up to Him and don’t rely on appearance. How difficult!
The better I understood Peter’s experience, when walking across the water and seeing the waves, began to sink. It went up and down with my eye.
“The enemy prowls around looking for someone to devour”! Was he frightening me? I directed myself to the Lord. At the day of control the eye-specialist said it was "okay". I hardly could believe it. “Why do I still see the flashes of lightning?” I asked. He answered in 1 sentence and I don’t remember what he said. “Come back in half a year". And I understood, that I might have been healed since a long the beginning, but in the mean time I was occupied with the appearance.
Philippians 4:6 “Don’t be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thankgiving, present your requests to God.” For me this is still excercise.
